Salam and Good evening readers.
It has been 1 week since new semester begin and now I'm officially a year 5 student in Faculty of Dentistry UiTM. But honestly, I don't feel like I qualified to be in final year. I'm not being negative, but I feel like there are still lot of things I need to learn before I can be call as 'Dentist'. I don't want when I work, I'm not competent and not being able to do things in the right way.
One of my lecturer once told me that if I'm not competent enough, when I work the superior won't give me any cases because they can't trust my ability. I don't want to end up like that. I know I should not think negative because it's just starting of my year 5. I have 1 year to finish everything. But at the same time I feel like I should worried so that I can work more efficiently rather than being lazy and doing nothing. At the same time I don't want to put a lot of hope coz I don't want to let down anyone, even myself. I have to prepare mental and physical from the start.
It's only 1 week, but I already stress out like hell! Looking at the timetable make me more messed up! My geographic tongue keep on changing it spot and it's painful. *sigh*
Having this stress sometime makes me aware that I have no time to lay down anymore. I have to work hard from the starting. I just want to try as the best I can. I'm starting to arrange my timetable properly and calling patient early so that I will have patient for all my session. I don't want to waste my clinical session anymore but still I have to admit...I really can't do anything with my pedo requirement. I have try my best. I search for patients and call them but at last they end up letting me down. When thinking about my pedo requirement, I just feel like crying...T_T
I feel ashamed every time my mentor aka my pedo lecturer ask me about my progress. I can't even look at her face!!
I just hope for the best and I always pray that everything will be easy for me and my classmate. I just wish that I can finish my study soon.
p/s: I'll be going to Felda Gunung Besout somewhere in Perak tomorrow for my Mobile Dental Clinic for 1 week.