Thursday, August 18, 2011
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Salam and Good Evening readers.
Finally, the clinical part of my research come to the end. But it's not truly the end because we still will continue to collect patient later. Just for the conference, we will used the amount of patient and data that we already have until today. I don't know how to say, whether I'm happy or what. It's mix feeling for me.
I've been focusing on this research for more than 5 weeks and I take it very serious and very important. It's kind of relief for me when the surgery stop until here, but still I feel sad cause we are unable to achieve the exact sample for the conference. But, like what my supervisor said, it's already good for us as undergraduate to achieve that kind of sample size. I know my supervisor is very positive thinking and that's what I admire about her.
Well, we finished our last surgery on last Friday, but I managed to talk with my supervisor and my partner together on Monday. She is very supportive and understanding. It was a good talk with her that day. She taught us a lot, not only on study, research but also about life and how to be better person/dentist and at the same time she is very nice, understanding and supportive.
She told us about lot of things, what to do and what not to do. I never imagined that she's like that when I first met her. I never imagined she's going to be my supervisor and I never imagined she will be so nice to me and my partner. What I like most about her is that, she is very low profile. Even though she's a surgeon but she never being proud of herself and she respect people. Each time we finished surgery, she will said thank you to all DSA, staff nurses, attendance and even me..I wish I can be like that in the future.
That day, I told her what I feel about this research and I was surprised when she said she understand what type of person I am. She gave good advice to me and my partner and she always guide us to be better. I hope she won't give up on me. She's my very good "teacher" in this faculty. She remind me of my great teacher during my high school.
I just hope I can still work together with her in the future.
p/s: Seems like I've been posting lots of words nowadays...sorry I've been busy with my clinical project and research, do not have enough time to snap some good pictures..Maybe later...:)
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Salam and Good Morning readers.
Well it has been 7 days in Ramdhan. It's already a week I've been fasting, 3 weeks left until Syawal. I just woke up and immediately type this post.
Not much happened yesterday and today Yesterday I slept after sahur and woke up at noon. I'm really tired and sleepy because I've been taken antihistamine for flu. I planned to go to lab finishing my works, but I end up in the bed for more than 6 hours that morning. Today, my condition still the same but I'm not taking any antihistamine today. My head is so heavy and it feel like it going to explode anytime soon I can't take pain killer now...huhu..
Luckily, yesterday I managed to make a correction of thesis and sent back to my supervisor. Well, not really yesterday actually but today because I sent an email to her at 1 am this morning. She has asked me and my partner to do correction I think few days back, but I just can finish the correction early this morning. I'm quite slow rite now.
Tommorow, we only got 3 patients for surgery...huhu, I'm sad cause number of patients keep on reducing time by time...This Friday, we might only have 2/3 patients only and the next Monday and Friday we might have no patient at all. I'm just hoping that when new semester start I'll be able to find an empty slot for us to proceed with this research. I really don't want it to stop now cause my aimed is to achieve the desired sample size. I'm waiting for my timetable to be release and I'm hoping I can find a miracle in it. Pray hard!
Everyone now already bought their ticket for Eid next month. Usually I also buy ticket early, but until now I still can't decide when I should go back home. Weird, I don't feel anything about Eid this year and I'm not worry at all about the ticket and I don't even bother to buy any Baju Kurung for this Eid. Maybe I have put all my 'worry' into my research! haha...Well, I know I'll be worry soon as I find out my ticket already sold out..haha..
Oh, this year I've been saving my money a lot! Because I don't have to buy food for 'bukak puasa'. I spent this 7 days at Pusat Islam UiTM for bukak puasa with my friends. It is a difference experience for me and my friends because this is the first time in 5 years we go bukak puasa at Pusat Islam. It's such a nice and good experience cause I'm able to solat jemaah maghrib, isya' and tarawikh, things that I rarely do as a muslim..huhu..
Well, that's all for now, I should go...Lot of things to do rite now..
Friday, August 5, 2011
Salam and Good evening readers.
It's already the 5th day of Ramadhan. Alhamdulillah I've been fasting from the start until now. Life had been quite difficult for me days before Ramadhan, but not it seem like everything going to be fine, hopefully.
I'd been facing quite tough situation for the past 2 weeks. Lots of thing happened and tears had been falling a lot for the past 2 weeks. It's not really about the stressful situation of my research but it's more about feeling of guilty. Maybe what my supervisor said is true, I should not say sorry to much. I keep on saying sorry to her. Saying sorry too much sometimes can make people bored. So, maybe I should not keep on saying sorry for everything but, it's hard you know...Cause I can't deny my mistake, so I always say sorry..
I just hope that everything will be fine and going back to normal. I know I have been focusing in this research too much. I don't know, I just like it. That's why I put lots of effort in this research. I know it's just an elective project, but I've been seeing my supervisor work so hard in this research, I don't want to let her down and the truth is I don't want to let myself down too. I don't want to see this research fail after all the hard work. I don't aim to win, I just want to learn something from this research and present this research proudly in front of the audience.
I know, I can't be the best but I always aim for the best in anything I do.